I normally really in the fall (autumn for any of you outside of the US). After all, Halloween is my favorite holiday and the cooler air helps me breath better even with my fall allergies. However, this year has been a nightmare. We had snow on Halloween, I had a very bad cold that week, and now my allergies are making me miserable. I have so much I want to get done. | Posted 9:15 AM
I am trying to get a few things ready for Halloween, my favorite holiday. However, I have a really bad cold that is not making things easy.
Okay so maybe sitting out back for about an hour yesterday was not a good idea. I woke up this morning with a bad cold. Oddly, it is only on one side of my face. | Posted 6:30 AM
I have had a very difficult few weeks, both from physical health issue and depression. I keep finding myself stuck in this rut on the edge of just giving up and I have to find a way to get out. I just don't know if I can do this alone.
At least I know the pup cares for me.
I have been fighting with depression for a long time. Sometimes it improves and I am more frustrated with my life than what call depressed other times it bad, really bad, and I don’t even want to get out of bed. I know the thing I should do is confront what has me depressed, which is very hard to know some times, but I am not sure I can.
Basically there are two big things that have down. One is that I feel alone, most of my so called friends only contact me when they need something from me. It could be fixing a computer or maybe even a little money, it is just never to see how I am doing. One of my so called friends even, well I do I put this. She basically stole my car. She gave me a sad story about that she was moving to another state and needed a car to be able to get to work. I am not able to drive right now and I was trying to sell my car. Well, it is complicated, but to make it simple she ended up with the car. However, I now know she sold it a few days after I gave it to her for a few hundred dollars. I had turned down a $3000 offer.
The second big reason is my health. I have so much I wanted to do and most of the time I am very motivated to work on them, but my health will just not let me. I can’t sit for very lone, I don’t have a way to work on things in bed, walking is more and more difficult. I just can’t handle all of this much longer.
Please don’t get me wrong. I know that sounds like I am going to harm myself and I AM NOT. I want to live, I want to have a future. I am just worried it may not be an option for my longer. I am not going to read over this post before I hit post, so I am sorry for any typing or spelling mistakes. | Posted 8:52 PM
I just had one of “my headache” that several doctors have called a form of Micro Seizure. I have not had one for months and normally I can feel that I am going to have one, which gives me a chance to sit down, but this time I had no warning.
The headache only lasts a few seconds and is a very sharpe pain feeling like I am stabbed right above my eye. However, after the pain goes away I am very light headed and extremely disoriented with every bit of energy drained from my body.
I am not a doctor so I have no way of knowing if they are right, all I can say is that I have been having them for many years going all the way back to 8th grade and I really hate them. My day is screwed.
I think my plan to start logging my food intake today was a bad idea. I am really feeling sick this morning and I don't think I will be able to keep anything down.
I really need to switch to a different blogging platform. I just lost another post that I had spent a great deal of time working on. It is the third time in a week. I also hate that I can’t automatically include the time of when the post was made.
I created this video 17 years ago for the first anniversary of this tragic day. It was my small tribute to the victims of 9/11, including my friend Barbara Olson who was on fight 77, Please Remember.
I am really enjoying the weather today. It has been around 70° F all way with a steady winds. It was really nice to open up the house. I was also able to get a lot done today, but I am hurting for it tonight, which is expected. Hoping tomorrow will be the same. | POSTED 8:14 PM
I had so much I wanted to get done today, but did not get much done at all. It was not back pain or knee pain, I just lost all motivation. I will try again tomorrow: | POSTED
The one I can always trust for a little help is our dog Kit. She is laying in my doorway watching me work on cleaning and if I drop something she comes in the room and picks it up for me.
She was never taught to this, she just started to do it on her own. She is the smartest dog I have ever seen. | 12:30 PM
I spend 99.5 % (or more) of my day in my small bedroom that I also use as an office. Right now there is some much stuff in here it is driving me crazy. So I am starting let another cleaning and down sizing session, something I do every few months.
The good thing is that I not really hurting today. My back every so often feels like some one has staped me, but no content pain. The bad thing is I am having stability problems and I am really worried I am going to fall. | 11:53 AM
I have been fighting with nausea all week and I was sure it had to do with the changes in my meds, earlier this week, but maybe not because I am really feeling sick tonight and can’t keep out of the bathroom. I guess it still could be the meds, but whatever it is I really hope it passes tonight. I have a lot of stuff I want to get done tomorrow. | POSTED 5:51 PM
I just got back from Bass Pro and was able to not only get the photo of the bench, but I also got about 1500 steps in and got a great deal on 9mm ammo. I always really enjoy going to their store, I just wish my body would handle the walking more. | Posted 12:35 PM
Kind of a strange morning. I am currently on the way to my local BassPro store to take a picture of a bench. Yes I said a bench. I recently found out the I can sit on the bench in the front entry of their Gurnee Illinois store with out pain so I reached out to them and asked if they could tell me how to get one | Posted 11:04 AM
When I woke up this morning I was really worried about my eye, because I had so much eye goop in it that I could not open it. However, after cleaning the eye out it is feeling much better and even the redness is gone. I think it is finally on the mend. | Posted 10:05 PM
My left eye is killing me and has been extremely blood shot for two days. I am a little worried I have an eye infection. Hopefully it will clear up in a few days, if not I have a doctor appointment next week.
My plan was was to return to daily posts today, but my back has been really killing me the last few days making it very difficult to sit at my computer. I can post from my phone, I am right now, but I think better with a real keyboard under my fingers. So I will try again tomorrow.