Micro seizure?

I just had one of “my headache” that several doctors have called a form of Micro Seizure. I have not had one for months and normally I can feel that I am going to have one, which gives me a chance to sit down, but this time I had no warning.

The headache only lasts a few seconds and is a very sharpe pain feeling like I am stabbed right above my eye. However, after the pain goes away I am very light headed and extremely disoriented with every bit of energy drained from my body.

I am not a doctor so I have no way of knowing if they are right, all I can say is that I have been having them for many years going all the way back to 8th grade and I really hate them. My day is screwed.

I have a helper

The one I can always trust for a little help is our dog Kit. She is laying in my doorway watching me work on cleaning and if I drop something she comes in the room and picks it up for me.

She was never taught to this, she just started to do it on her own. She is the smartest dog I have ever seen. | 12:30 PM

Our Puppy Kit (older photo)

Our Puppy Kit (older photo)

Trying to clean my room/office (or is it a cell)

I spend 99.5 % (or more) of my day in my small bedroom that I also use as an office. Right now there is some much stuff in here it is driving me crazy. So I am starting let another cleaning and down sizing session, something I do every few months.

The good thing is that I not really hurting today. My back every so often feels like some one has staped me, but no content pain. The bad thing is I am having stability problems and I am really worried I am going to fall. | 11:53 AM

Feeling sick, again.. 🤨

I have been fighting with nausea all week and I was sure it had to do with the changes in my meds, earlier this week, but maybe not because I am really feeling sick tonight and can’t keep out of the bathroom. I guess it still could be the meds, but whatever it is I really hope it passes tonight. I have a lot of stuff I want to get done tomorrow. | POSTED 5:51 PM

The Bench

I just got back from Bass Pro and was able to not only get the photo of the bench, but I also got about 1500 steps in and got a great deal on 9mm ammo. I always really enjoy going to their store, I just wish my body would handle the walking more. | Posted 12:35 PM

Bass Pro Bench

Bass Pro Bench

On the way to BassPro

Kind of a strange morning. I am currently on the way to my local BassPro store to take a picture of a bench. Yes I said a bench. I recently found out the I can sit on the bench in the front entry of their Gurnee Illinois store with out pain so I reached out to them and asked if they could tell me how to get one | Posted 11:04 AM

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Quick Update

My plan was was to return to daily posts today, but my back has been really killing me the last few days making it very difficult to sit at my computer. I can post from my phone, I am right now, but I think better with a real keyboard under my fingers. So I will try again tomorrow.

Returning soon.

I have not posted it a long time. While I thought about blaming it on the fact my computer was not working, the truth is that I have been extremely depressed and had basically giving up on everything. I am still trying to find a way to get the surgery and it is not looking good. Someone I cared for deeply decided to end our friendship taking not only herself out of my life, but her two kids I cared for like my own. While I now get to talk to her and the kids again, they moved to another state and I miss them greatly.

So why am I posting now? I am not really sure. Maybe I have moved beyond the the grief stage. Maybe I am setting a second wind. All I really know is that a little butterfly and her caterpillar have shown me I am not alone and I am not worthless. | Posted 1:50 AM

New Wound

I have planned for months to write a post about my wound issue, but it has been so difficult for me to sit at a computer for very long and it is a complex subject. So as I discover I have a new wound I am going to give a basic over view.

Over the last couple years I have repeatedly developed wounds on the large growth in my groin area. One of the wounds had even gone septic and almost killed me. The doctor told me that I was most likely within hours of dying when I got to the hospital. 

The biggest problem is that I don't always know I have them and even if I find blood, like I did today, I can't find the wound itself. I know that it is hard to understand how this could be possible, but please remember the growth is around 85lbs (38.6 kg) in size. 

 I strongly believe that it is the weight of the growth that is causing the wounds. | Posted 6:28 PM